My family had the police hand-cuff me who then hauled me away to the hospital: I had a real bad bipolar episode. Let's just that I was holding a hammer.
just relax and chill with us
I've read the article and, though it is informative, the (only) consructive advice I can extract from it is that you should be in close contact with a knowledgeable health care provider and should scrupuously follow his advice and take his prescribed medications -- the same advice as for anyone with a serious condition, and yours sounds serious. I know you've heard that advice over and over by now, but our well-wishes will carry you only so far. You are the one who has to stick with staying out of difficulty.